I remember the day I ended my three year relationship with Someday. I don't think I was ever really committed to it; its' name alone said I never had to be. It was a phantom day that wasn't on the calendar, anywhere. Year after year, it never came around for me. What did I want?
What were my aspirations? What did I dream about when I was awake? What were my answers, and why had it taken me so long to ask myself the questions? Slowly, much like the cautious steps into a new relationship, I consciously began dating my future.
Some of our dates were rocky and filled with uncertainties. I argued out of fear that it wasn't yet time, it disagreed. I had self-imposed deadlines to meet, and a certain accountability to my future; didn't want it to sue me for negligence. The more time I spent with it, listening to it, and having inner conversations in truth with it, the more attracted I became to the direction called, forward. Suddenly, the endless potential and possibilities and the idea of becoming the me that was waiting for me, fueled my focus. Honesty is key in dating. Tell the truth. Tell yourself the truth. You'll find the attraction. Trust me, it's there...
-Sarena James
Soul Jots is a house of sorts for words. In each room, there is a quiet space to hear and write your own self happy, or free, or through.
